Have you ever had bubble tea? If so, have you ever had taro bubble tea?! If not, you need to try some STAT because it’s a revelation. I was going to write a nice long blog because I know you alllllll enjoy my endless rants but I would rather share my love to the world. Whenever I go anywhere near the city or my parents do, I make a little trip to this cafe in China Town, Quickly. And zomg, their taro bubble tea is to die for. It’s amazing.

Also, Faye from Vintaged.org is taking donations for her cause for NSPCC! She’ll be skydiving and needs donations! If you donate, you’ll get advertising! Click here to go to her website!

My other blog about Warped Tour got deleted due to some technical problems  so.. I’m not gonna rewrite everything I put in the last blog so this will be like a synopsis.

I have two mosquito bites on the heel of my foot.. the most random place ever.. and IT’S SO ITCHY.  Oh by the way, I wrote this in my last Warped Tour blog but I doubt anyone got a chance to read it but, I’m allergic to my friend’s sunblock that I used on the day of Warped! So it took 5 days after Warped for my face to go back to normal because it was all swollen which is what always happens whenever I’m allergic to anything (which I am to everything). So my dermatologist gave me some great pills that taste disgusting if they get on my tongue and cream for my face and I’m better! Woo!

So the bands I saw (which I’ll list again.. ) were Hey Monday, Motion City Soundtrack, We The Kings, The Summer Set, Sparks The Rescue, Never Shout Never, Reel Big Fish, Some screamo band that sucked, THE ALL-AMERICAN REJECTS (which I was front row for! ), You Me at Six, The Pretty Reckless (Taylor Momsen is a mess.), and others that I can’t think of now. This years line up was rather disappointing, the Bamboozle Roadshow’s lineup looked so much better. >:( But I got to be a few feet away from Tyson Ritter and Nick Wheeler, my favorite members of The All-American Rejects. OHHHH And this guy who worked at the Trojan condom tent gave me a free Trojan headband LOLZ. And lastly, I met the drummer of a band called The Upwellings who were actually signed by Tyson! I have to admit, the drummer did look a little sketchy when he came up to my friends and I and asked if we wanted to hear some new music.. but he was so adorable in the end.

Update on ma driving: I’m doing really well! I’m driving just as well as the seniors! My turns are still a work in progress but I’m improving! Pretty good for someone who’s been driving for only a few weeks! But the first day of driver ed this week, I did SO well that my instructor gave me a fist pound (LOL) and said I was fantastic! Suck on that biatch who said I sucked! And when I switched spots after I was done driving, I sat next to her in the back seat and I said really loud, “So, did I make anyone seasick?!” I love myself.

Also if you may have noticed, I’m inactive on the days when I have driver ed so Tuesdays, Wednesdays, and Thursdays for the next few weeks I won’t be on because I’m so exhausted. Not from driving but from waking up so early and getting so little sleep.

I have a blog because I love webdesign. I just enjoy everything that comes along with it. When I discovered that I could make my own website and do whatever I pleased with it, I thought that was amazing. I just enjoy being on here and typing out basically my life for whoever to read. I don’t come on here to write because it’s a cry for attention from people I don’t know. It’s not about hits or trying to become popular in the online world, I just enjoy blogging. But I feel like others who have blogs don’t do it because they love it, they do it for the sake of blogging.

I feel like sometimes people who have blogs think that they’re a loser because they have a blog so they have to prove it to everyone that they do have friends. You don’t have to prove yourself to anyone. Having a website doesn’t make you a loser. Chances are, you made a blog in the first place because you liked it. So now why is it that people feel the need to declare that they do in fact have friends in the “real world.” Is sitting in front of a computer blogging something only losers do? Does Perez Hilton sit in front of his laptop and blog about celebrities all day long because he’s a loser? No, he does it because he loves it. And trashing people is a little fun.

I don’t get why blogging seems like something only losers do. Like if you have a blog, therefore you’re a loser with nothing better to do. I don’t think I’m a loser because I have a blog, I don’t think there’s anything wrong with having a blog. So why do so many believe that? Blogging should be something you do because you enjoy it, not something you do because you feel you have to or something you resort to because you have no friends. Lets face it, everyone’s a loser in their own quirky way but you don’t have to prove it to the world that you aren’t one because you have a website.

I finished a new layout in a record 3 days from when I said I’d make a new one! AHHH See Tiff? I’m keeping my word! I would’ve finished yesterday but I was so exhausted from waking up at 6 AM for driver ed that I just spent all day watching Mall Cops on TLC (LOL I know, I’m cool ). I just couldn’t bring myself to code because when I tried to code the layout after making it, it was such a fail I just couldn’t deal with it anymore. haha. But I figured them out today! I’ll be working on requests and just fixing up the site later too.

I need to vent. So I just found out from one of my best friends (so I know it’s legit) that someone in my driver ed car likes to talk about my driving to other people! This person’s gonna be a  senior so they’ve had a whole year’s worth of experience in driving compared to me since I just got my permit 2 weeks ago so of course they’d be better than me right? So I hear that they go around telling people that I give them sea sickness when I stomp on the gas pedal!? OKAY BUDDY, I’m not apologizing for the fact that I’m just learning how to drive and that the instructor yells in my ear so I stop when he does! Bitch please, you’re not the shiz so hop off. You being asleep when everyone is driving doesn’t really help when the car thumps with every 5 feet too! Hop the fuck off. Kay, now I’m good.

OH and I finally got my new  iPod Touch for my birthday!… 4 months late… (my brother lost my old one in Rochester) but hey, better late than never. So now I can update on the go! Well at least make new posts because I’m so lazy to go on the computer and type but now I can when I’m dying at driver ed. IT’S SO PRETTTYYYY I LOVEEEE ITTT.<333333

ALSOOOOO, I added something pretty cool to Hopeless Thunder’s Facebook fanpage, chchcheckkk it outttt! 6 fans! lolz

How you likin’ the new layout? It’s simple, I like it.

So who wants to help me figure out how to edit my page navigation plugin?!

I don’t know about you but I absolutely loathe my website, as much as my driving instructor in Driver Ed class. Ugh, how I loathe him. You know who’s website I absolutely adore? TIFF from Aesthetic Intoxication. Her website blows me away. It makes mine look like crap. Okay, these smilies need to go! Lol And this layout color isn’t helping either. Haha. Uhh, I’m not really sure if my browser is like set right so I don’t know if my header is actually supposed to be that size or if I zoomed in… if I did then I’m a complete idiot. Yeah.. I think I did zoom in… woops!

But anyways, I really wanna make a new layout and like change the look of Hopeless Thunder a lot. But I don’t know if I can. I really need to stop using left sided layouts and make it just in the freaking center but I honestly don’t know what I’m doing when it comes to the site. I just wing it! So it’s gonna take me a while. Haha. But I basically have a pretty free summer except for driver ed and babysitting, and the occasional work but I think if I really try I can make an actual layout! It’ll take me awhile though. I’m sure you all know that seeing as I like to disappear for weeks/months after I post anything. Yeah, I suck. haha But I’m working on it!

So something on my mind that I wanted to blog about (wait.. it’s 2:22 am EST and I have to be up at 6:00 am for driver ed.. not my best decision) but yeah, so with my SPECTACULAR lol NAHT.. training in psychology from my AP class, I think I was depressed for a while, at least a month. My past post where I talked about changes and what not, yeah thinking about that time in my life, reflecting on it I have no idea what the hell was going on! Just school and whatever else (ugh boys.. OH HAY TIFF, whatever code name I used for my ex, yeah we’re done LOL) and ugh life was just so stressful and I was just depressed.

I feel like I was manic depressive because I’d switch on and off about my mood and how I felt but I never felt manic and had a kind of feeling like wanting to take over the world ha. But I don’t know, I just want to get it out there. I don’t have a set time of when I felt like this but I know it went on for a few weeks and I just wanted to like well die, I know it sounds crazy but that’s how I felt. Maybe it was just the stress and pressure getting to me? Feelings just out of control and led to destructive thoughts. Not very good. But thinking about it seems like it was so far away and it’s weird that I even felt that way. I’ll get the occasional feeling like disappearing just so whoever I’m frustrated with will value me more, you know what I mean? Kinda like “you need me, stfu and be nice and stop being an asshole.”

I don’t think my thoughts and mind were very stable, well they weren’t but I feel like I’m in a better clearer place now. Maybe it was just the stress getting to me? I’ve made my mistake of taking AP’s that are fucking stupid (aka AP Human Geography, which is fairly new and advice to anyone out there: DO NOT TAKE IT) and AP Psychology which was interesting but not what I want to pursue so taking it was a complete bust, I fell into the pressure of staying in the class because of my friends even though I should have dropped with some of my other friends who didn’t like it.

But junior year is gonna be different. I’m planning ahead and doing things to make sure my mental breakdown doesn’t happen again. I’m doing things early like this summer driver ed class instead of during the school year which takes so much longer. I’m only taking classes I like, like AP Chemistry, AP English Language, human anatomy, and astronomy. Classes that will help me for college and ones I like, not ones to pad up my resume that I’ll have to suffer through. This whole planning ahead thing is really working out haha. I don’t know, I was just in a dark place a few months ago but I’m completely out of it and life seems so much better. I guess all the sun and summer is helping.

Okay, venting time is over. I’m gonna sleep, go to driver ed and suffer through my driving  instructor who I sincerely believe hates me because I’m the only one who he forces to drive in parking lots, take a nap since I’m getting up in 3 hours, a little shopping my fav, and then home to think of ideas to change my crappy ass website! Wish me luck! I’m gonna need it! Bye!

P.S. that was a really freaking long blog. :O