Why the hell did I make a left centered layout? It looks stupid looking at it months later! lol Or maybe I’m not zoomed in enough because I don’t remember it looking that small.. hmm.. By the way, I want new smilies but I don’t know where to get good sized and cute smilies so help me out! School finished officially last Thursday on the 10th so IM FREEEEEEEEEEEEE! Well after I take my last final and 3 regents’. OH MAH GAWD. Like the torture just never ends! I have an English final, and a chem, math, and global regents. KILL ME. My chem teacher who I love keeps taunting us that the chem and math regents’ are the hardest to pass but I’ll blow them away. I’m taking AP Chem next year, is it weird I’m excited?! LOL I had the AP teacher this year and now I get her again, and I love her!

Oh and even though it doesn’t seem like it because I disappeared for months, I’VE MISSED THE SITE AND EVERYONE ON HERE! I really did! And to my affiliates, I suck. I know how you’re supposed to keep in touch and all and I know I did a terrible job at it but please please forgive meeeee! Haha, hopefully I’ll be on more during the summer! Yeah, who am I kidding that’s not gonna happen. But I do have a job this summer and drivers ed at my school soooo we’ll see what happens. GEEZ, I need a new layout! WAIT, I just zoomed in and it looks so much better! ahaha Maybe I’ll make a new one if I remember how to use Photoshop and PSP.

Yeah, there was no point to this post. hahaha. Lets catch up everyone! BTW I REPLIED TO 90% OF MY EMAILS YESTERDAY! BE PROUD!

My last time passing Chipotle on the way home from school! Gosh, I love that place!<33

HEYYY so yesterday while I was at a track meet with my friend, watching only, and i got a call from my mom and she fixed my computer! I had a virus and the person saved all my files (THANK GOD) and my mom got me a back up thingy and I had to back up all my files into it WHICH TOOK AN ENTIRE DAY TO DO! =/ And so yeah, my computer’s back! WOO. Anyways, AP’s are next week and I have to studyyyy! Byeeeeezzzzz

My computer’s just sitting there on my floor of my room collecting dust. A rather great life for a computer isn’t it?  Whatever, I can’t do anything about my parent’s not caring about my research paper files in my computer that’s due in a week or that the music which makes my life is in there either. I’ve gotta accept it. Being away from the computer and having to deal with the site has gotten me to think. I want to change my life. No. I have to change it. My life and the way I’m living it is not how I want to or what’s best for me. As for any kid in high school, it’s really tough and stressful, and by making changes to it I can make things so much better for myself and the people around me.  Now I’m not saying I’m depressed or anything, I’ve just gotta make changes in my life to make me happier and make my life a healthy one. Ya see, that sounds so vague and general like you’re probably thinking “this idiot, wtf is she talking about, everyone wants changes in  their lives, she’s so redundant and making no sense.” But I know what I want to change and I’ve already started.

Like anyone in high school, it carries with it drama. Which is probably one of the biggest things causing stress. Now I want to de-stress my life and make it a healthy life that is just good for me. I’ve been in a rut lately, one caused by drama. The first thing I had to do was lose all connection to that drama. After I lost that drama I just felt so free and better. It’s one less thing to worry about and it makes all the difference in the world. But I also want to make more changes than just cutting out the drama in my life.

These are the life stressors I’ve been able to pin point:

• Lack of sleep which leads to an irritable Nancy
• Stupid drama that makes me want to punch someone
• Procrastination
• Avoiding conflicts
• Inability to save my money
• Obsession over the stupidest things
• Eating healthier and exercise
• See the brighter side in things
• Stop being so mood swingy

Now there’s so many more stressors but these are a few that I want to deal with first. I’ve been able to deal with the drama so far, by telling people how I feel about them, blocking people from Facebook (which seems completely childish but it really helps because I don’t need to see people who cause drama in my life or get 100 notifications from someone I don’t like), and ending the relationship altogether. Taking the drama out of my life has really had an impact on my attitude and I’m a lot happier now. I feel light and free and for some reason it brings me back to this happy feeling of summer ’08 which was an amazing year and it’s like when I listen to Six Feet Under the Stars by All Time Low I get this happy feeling and I’m not sure why. I’ve actually making a lot of progress and making a lot of changes to my life. One thing which seems silly is I’ve taken down my curtains and just left up white blinds on my windows which makes my room super bright and open windows which makes my room airy and nice and makes me happier. I just love the outdoors freshy feel and it’s really had an impact. I really want to get a good rhythm going because when I go to college and I’m away from my safe haven, I won’t have anything to fall back on so I need to be able to stand on my own two feet. I can’t  do that if I’m a complete wreck and can’t deal with my problems or anything upsetting me. I can only be able to stand on my own if I’m happy with myself and my life.

I’m really gonna try hard to make changes to my life. I need to get rid of all the stress and deal with all my problems. I don’t need all this stress at 16, I’m just trying to be a kid still, but a kid who can be able to breathe for once and be able to live life without the weight of stupid things keeping me down. Wish me luck!

ITS MY BIRTHDAY YALLLLL! I’m in Florida for my birthday and it’s sooo nice! So much better than back on the island! At least here the weather isn’t bipolar every day! AHH So nice here! I can’t get over it!

Anyways, sorry I haven’t been on at all! I broke my computer! LOL I think I got a virus or whatever. It doesn’t turn on anymore. hahaha I suck so much. I have a laptop but I hate typing on it so the only thing I use it for is school stuff and Facebook. lol I have to get my computer fixed soon but if they won’t be able to save my files I’ll cry if I have to start over. Hopefully that won’t happen!

Guys, it’s so nice in Florida! I can’t get over it! It’s spring break now and I hope I’ll have time for the site now! Life’s been so busy since the end of the school year is coming so all the teachers are freaking out, AP’s are coming up SOOO soon, finals, regents’, friends getting ready to leave, and so much more is happening I’m getting so overwhelmed. Just yesterday I took 6 back to back tests every period. >:( When the day was over and my last test was done I was still in shock that I took so many and that I actually finished them all! But now it’s spring break and my birthday and I get to chill on the beach.

Bye everyone! Have a great spring break!

It’s snowing. Long Island is right smack dab in the middle of the storm. And I have another snow day. Woo. This snow is starting to piss me off. These snow days are messing everything up, as much as I love having no school, I like not having to delay five tests until the next week more.

So yesterday was Girls Sports Night. I think I blogged about this last year too. But this year I wasn’t on dance because I didn’t have time anymore but I was on volleyball and it was so much fun. GSN is this night where all the girls come on their teams, the two teams are the school colors, and we play against each other in an array of events, basketball, volleyball, relay races, senior relay, obstacle course, cheer, and dance. So many people came last night and it was intense. I wish I took pictures but I thought I was leaving right after volleyball so I didn’t bring my camera. But still, it was so much fun.

After the welcome cheers, volleyball was the first event and I was middle back. At first things were rocky because my friend Morgan, if anyone remembers her from old blogs, she messed up the first serve but from there my team was so good. We had all the varsity volleyball players and we were unstoppable.  I got my team a lot of points so I should get a prize for MVP. My team won a lot of events but the stupid freshman had no idea what they were doing on a lot of events and lost it for us. Now the most important event of the night was the dancing and omfg, if you could be there it was mind blowing. Even though I wasn’t on dance this year, seeing it was just as great. It was amazing. My team had the less exciting theme but our dance compared to theirs was spectacular. The opposite team had the more exciting theme but their dance seriously sucked. haha. Overall, the other team won the entire night so that really sucked but my team was clearly the best, the judges just didn’t realize it.

My voice is completely gone from screaming like crazy last night but it’s gonna get better because as I speak, my mom is making pho which if you don’t know, is this Vietnamese soup with noodles and it’s FREAKING AMAZING. Tiff and I have this intense love for it.  haha I’m so excited to eat it, omfg. I cannot express how happy I am that my mom is making it. In this crappy snow storm, a nice bowl of pho is just the best thing ever.